Any who, back on subject. I was reading my book and I found something that Richard from Texas says that was interesting. Just to kind of clue you in Elizabeth Gilbert was in love with this guy and things didn't work out and she has been struggling with getting over it and moving on. She tells Richard from Texas that she thinks it's so hard to get over this guy because she believed he was her soulmate. Before I tell you what Richard responded with to this, I have to say; how many times have you heard this or heavens you may have said this and got let down. I know Laura's mom preaches it all the time and Laura never fails to give a good eye roll after every time it's mentioned. Why is it that we all ways feel this way? We feel this connection and then automatically assume that "Oh yea, this is it." It's crazy, and then you get to know that person better and you are like "Holy hell, he/she is not the person I thought he/she was." or they're not the person they were when you first met. Well here is what Richard responds to her with and I hope it's as insightful to you as it was to me.
"He probably was. Your problem is you don't understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can't let this one go. It's over, Groceries. David's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it's over. Problem is, you can't accept that this relationship had a real short shelf life. You're like a dog at the dump, baby-- you're just lickin' at an empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. and if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it... So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him and then drop it. You're just afraid to let go of the last bits of him because then you'll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she's really alone. But here's what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you are using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot-- a door-way. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in- God will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using him to block that door and just let go... You're wishin' too much baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be."
Sorry that was long, but goodness when I read that and finished with that last line, I was blown away! Im through with analyzing and replaying situations, wishing they would have turned out different. Things do happen for a reason and people say it all the time but it's time for me to actually believe it. It's hard being heart-broken! It's hard being the single one when everyone is having couples parties or you see on facebook that everyone is getting married, having a baby, or getting a dog (by the way this is getting out of hand like why don't people just get a new hobby, like I don't know rain dancing or yodeling?). It's time for everyone to become the exception not the rule! Live our life, appreciate the people that come into it, and also be thankful when they leave! Yea you'll miss them but every time you miss them send some light and happiness their way and move on.
I promise I won't always talk about dealing with being alone it's just something I am fighting with right now. But on to a better note: Working out. You gotta love and hate that freaking term. I have been doing it for a while now and I still hate it. Now, don't get me wrong, I do love to run. However, you see I should be running right now, but nooo, I am sitting in my bed on my new satin zebra print sheets (LOVE EM) and pressing the thirty minute snooze button. I worked out pretty hard yesterday and I am slowly starting to get my appetite back. Yesterday I wanted steak and potatoes sooo bad! No clue why, maybe my inner cave woman was coming out, "Me want meat!" (Don't be dirty! :0) Anyway I am trying to get to where I run 6 miles a day atleast 5 days a week and get some rocking abs. If that means I am going to have to get G.I. Jane with this stuff! It's going to happen!
Summary: starting to accept my life the way it is and trying to add some adventure curve ball into it. Still haven't picked up guitar... And weight loss is in the works. I would have to say my life changing checklist isn't going terribly. We'll give it a B for today. Everyone have a great day! And remember, this is very important. There wasn't and will NEVER be a memo that says the left side of the road is the slow lane or the chillax lane. If you are going to drive slow or have the mind set of "I have nowhere to go and all day to get there," Get your cute behind in the right lane! That is all... Danni OUT! Love your face!