Friday, October 21, 2011

Nothing Wrong With This Morton...Nothing Wrong With This

Okay... so I officially have the funniest sister in the world! My sister and I are a lot alike and very different at the same time. We always quote movies... random parts of movies that people wouldn't usually pick up on. Well I was reading my book a few minutes ago and found something I wanted to share with you all and I hear my sister in the other room, cleaning the bathroom. Well all of a sudden she just says randomly, "Nothing wrong with this Morton, nothing wrong with this." Needless to say, I am quite used to the random outbursts because I do it all the time and so does she. So, at first I don't react, but then the statement just repeats over and over in my this point I realize what she just said and I cannot stop laughing... in fact I still am. The kicker: she didn't even realize she said it out loud, she was just thinking it! Oh my goodness! Love her and it's going to be her birthday tomorrow! So it should get pretty exciting in this house!

Any who, back on subject. I was reading my book and I found something that Richard from Texas says that was interesting. Just to kind of clue you in Elizabeth Gilbert was in love with this guy and things didn't work out and she has been struggling with getting over it and moving on. She tells Richard from Texas that she thinks it's so hard to get over this guy because she believed he was her soulmate. Before I tell you what Richard responded with to this, I have to say; how many times have you heard this or heavens you may have said this and got let down. I know Laura's mom preaches it all the time and Laura never fails to give a good eye roll after every time it's mentioned. Why is it that we all ways feel this way? We feel this connection and then automatically assume that "Oh yea, this is it." It's crazy, and then you get to know that person better and you are like "Holy hell, he/she is not the person I thought he/she was." or they're not the person they were when you first met. Well here is what Richard responds to her with and I hope it's as insightful to you as it was to me.

"He probably was. Your problem is you don't understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can't let this one go. It's over, Groceries. David's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it's over. Problem is, you can't accept that this relationship had a real short shelf life. You're like a dog at the dump, baby-- you're just lickin' at an empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. and if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it... So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him and then drop it. You're just afraid to let go of the last bits of him because then you'll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she's really alone. But here's what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you are using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot-- a door-way. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in- God will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using him to block that door and just let go... You're wishin' too much baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be."

Sorry that was long, but goodness when I read that and finished with that last line, I was blown away! Im through with analyzing and replaying situations, wishing they would have turned out different. Things do happen for a reason and people say it all the time but it's time for me to actually believe it. It's hard being heart-broken! It's hard being the single one when everyone is having couples parties or you see on facebook that everyone is getting married, having a baby, or getting a dog (by the way this is getting out of hand like why don't people just get a new hobby, like I don't know rain dancing or yodeling?). It's time for everyone to become the exception not the rule! Live our life, appreciate the people that come into it, and also be thankful when they leave! Yea you'll miss them but every time you miss them send some light and happiness their way and move on.

I promise I won't always talk about dealing with being alone it's just something I am fighting with right now. But on to a better note: Working out. You gotta love and hate that freaking term. I have been doing it for a while now and I still hate it. Now, don't get me wrong, I do love to run. However, you see I should be running right now, but nooo, I am sitting in my bed on my new satin zebra print sheets (LOVE EM) and pressing the thirty minute snooze button. I worked out pretty hard yesterday and I am slowly starting to get my appetite back. Yesterday I wanted steak and potatoes sooo bad! No clue why, maybe my inner cave woman was coming out, "Me want meat!" (Don't be dirty! :0) Anyway I am trying to get to where I run 6 miles a day atleast 5 days a week and get some rocking abs. If that means I am going to have to get G.I. Jane with this stuff! It's going to happen!

Summary: starting to accept my life the way it is and trying to add some adventure curve ball into it. Still haven't picked up guitar... And weight loss is in the works. I would have to say my life changing checklist isn't going terribly. We'll give it a B for today. Everyone have a great day! And remember, this is very important. There wasn't and will NEVER be a memo that says the left side of the road is the slow lane or the chillax lane. If you are going to drive slow or have the mind set of "I have nowhere to go and all day to get there," Get your cute behind in the right lane! That is all... Danni OUT! Love your face!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Here Goes Nothing

Gracious, I know what you have to be thinking, Another girl, another blog, just some more ranting and raving about men, diets, and a lot of complaining. Well I am here to tell you that you are... probably right but hopefully someone out there will get some kind of knowledge from my crazy sometimes stupid decisions and life lessons.

Lets begin with me. That's kind of an intimidating first line because I am as complicated as they come. I grew up in Baton Rouge, Louisiana and was always the very outspoken little girl growing up. I remember starting my first day of third grade (my first day ever at a public school), I got on that big yellow school bus, saw a girl that was sitting by herself, and skipped right up to her. What do I do, not just ask if I can sit down, no just took a seat with a big grin on my face and said in my tone deaf loud cheery voice, "Hi, my name is Danielle, will you be my friend?" So, you get the gist of the kind of personality I have. I never met a stranger and I could make friends with the wall if it would talk back. Well that's enough of that! I'm sure my personality will shine through just fine in these things.

I am blogging because I feel like I have a lot of knowledge on life and come across a lot of quotes, life lessons, songs, etc. that help me through this crazy adventure of mine. I am christian but I do not believe my beliefs are the only right ones; therefore, please no one take offense if I make a comments about them. I am not and will not be preaching I will just be sharing what I found got me through those particular moments. Well here goes nothing!
Well we all know what all women talk about first: MEN. How doggish they are, how we are better than they are, blah blah blah. I, however, love men... Well sometimes ha! In this past year I have learned a lot about those beings that we can't seem to live without. I have never had a boyfriend but I have been on my share of dates, set-ups, heartbreaks, etc. I think Elizabeth Gilbert (author of Eat, Pray, Love) describes it best and explains how I am when I come into contact with a man that I like/love. FYI: I am currently reading this book; therefore, I will be quoting a lot from it. Anyway when I read this the other day I was in awe at how this is pretty much a summary of my "love life":
“Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that’s not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into
the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog’s money, my
dog’s time—everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else. "
It's unfortunately the sad truth about myself. I am sometimes so strong and know exactly who I am. However, I have also been so lonely and have longed for that physical touch/ affection from a man that as soon as one comes along I drop everything. I'll leave work early (even if I am completely and utterly broke!), cancel plans, do anything. I like to compare it to when I find a new article of clothing I really like or a food that makes me make noises while I eat it. I want either the food everyday or I could wear that article of clothing every single day! I really dislike this about myself and I am in the process of working on it! My best friend is probably reading this and being like, "Duh, Danni, when you going to learn that i'm the smart one in this friendship!"

Growing up, I tried to raise myself on morals and values that were good and pure. Kind of like Pollyanna. The chick was a saint even when she fell out of a tree and was paralyzed, vomit worthy, I'm aware! I always wished and prayed for a man that had my same values, worked hard for everything, and according to Mr. Steve, "deserved how good I was going to treat him." Well after this year I had enough of waiting around for that golden man, I wanted to call my husband. I was going to take matters in my own hands, screw fate! haha Not the best idea, but hey I am a girl and that's how I roll!

So I met three men this year that probably have shaped my jaded perspective on dating and relationships. I will not name any names because everyone has broken someone else, hell I still beat myself up for the one I hurt. It's all about building a bridge. I found that physical touch is an amazing thing, and if you close your eyes you can imagine you are with someone completely different. This sounds awful but let me explain. If you are with this guy and yea he is hot as hell but the kicker he is a complete A-hole and only calls you once a week and probably has someone else just like you waiting for his call for their time tomorrow. You just close your eyes and he is this beautiful man that treats you like a queen and is now giving you the most passionate kiss of your life. Now I am not recommending this, in fact I shun you from it! It will not fill that boyfriend spot in your life, that need/want for attention etc. In the end he is and will always be an A-hole who doesn't know when to get off the field or doesn't know what the hell he wants. This goes for women too! Most men are this way because they were burned by a woman, a dumb selfish woman! So thank you to the crazies that ruined it for the rest of us! I highly recommend reading "He's just not that into you" LIFE CHANGING, just saying. I have however met my share of amazing men! Men that I would trust whole-heartedly and what can I say I am a hopeless romantic and there is no way in hell God created all men to be as inhuman as the ones I have encountered this year. I do believe that there are great men out there and like I said I have met a few of them. So cheers to all the men and women who will grow from their lessons and won't fall for the crazy women and the a-hole men!

So these are the things I plan on working on to help me reinstate Danielle into Master and Commander of this ship:
  1. Be happy with my life and the things I am given: including being single (hell i'm 23, nowhere near marriage or children, and I have a whole world that needs to be discovered by me!)
  2. Lose 20-30 more pounds. (Ugh, hate losing weight, it's the devil, I am convinced)
  3. Learn guitar ( had that sucker for 8 years now, should be a prodigy but nope "Its what the french call Lay-zay Compe- tant")
  4. Increase vocal range and work on perfect pitch ( That's right Julie Andrews better watch her back)
  5. Pay off all debt ( HATEEEEE)
  6. Cut out most/all junk food
  7. Re-establish relationship with God ( I do not like this path I have chosen this year time to get back on track and get my head back in the game!)
  8. Finish school (no comment)
  9. Read more (complete my 3 year old book list)
So here goes nothing let the battles, the blogging, and the good choices begin! Have a great night and make good choices yourself! Hugs not drugs! Love your face!